Reflection

I feel that this blog lacks direction. It's about my life - but there are many elements of my life that could come into it. The posts are sporadic, and many don't even reach the blog itself, instead left unfinished. Notice the length of my last few posts. None of them have even one substantial paragraph.

I still love writing; if anything, I enjoy it far more than when I started blogging. And this blog has certainly benefited me in various ways. I've learnt how to structure blog posts, devise attention-grabbing titles, sustain a project etc. But I just don't believe that it's completely, well, me any more.

I'm not saying this is the end at all, but rather a new beginning. As cheesy as that sounds, it's true. I'll continue to post here. Random thoughts, observations and questioning will be here. This is an important thing, this blog. It's tracked me through some very important times and I'll never lose that.

So, about this so-called 'new beginning'. I'm thinking about starting a new blog focused on a specific area that I'm passionate about and have a vested interest in. I have a few options, so it's just a matter of choosing something that I can maintain. For example, as much as I enjoy musical theatre, I just don't visit the West End often enough to blog about musicals on a regular basis. Besides, it would probably end up being dedicated to Avenue Q and Hair!

In summary, don't say bye (or un-follow!) yet. More is to come, believe me. I just need a bit of time to think. Things are changing enough as it is, so life is a bit hazy at the moment.

Ooh, someone from Russia has viewed my blog!

Спасибо! And thank you to the British people and Americans as well!

I'm not cool. I already knew this.

Okay, allow me to explain the back-story. I've been experimenting with Tumblr over the past few days because it's invaded my life over the past year or so. I see the point of it - a 'hip, trendy, cool' site; a younger, more glamorous version of Blogspot, perhaps. And, oh, how I've tried to like it. I really, really have.

I set up two different Tumblr sites, one of which has nothing at all posted on it because I simply didn't get that far. Yes, I like the idea of reblogging and the 'like' button certainly makes it to praise others, but I when it comes to blogging I think I'm a traditional kind of person. A site like this will always appeal to me - one standard post format accommodating text, images and videos. If you want a quote, you type it in and format it yourself. Granted, it may not have the striped background for quotes that Tumblr boasts, but it's functional and I can manipulate it in whichever way I please.

Furthermore, to me it seems that Tumblr is only fun once you have a few followers and people start reblogging you. Although it would be nice to have a few more followers on this blog, I don't really feel like I need it because 'Green nails and pink hands' is a personal expression. Plus, I have two great friends reading it so my audience is somewhat established. With Tumblr I feel like I'd be constantly reblogging photos of indulgent cupcakes and thin, beautiful people wearing effortlessly fashionable outfits. Lovely, but nothing very individual or representative of me in particular. If I want to see that kind of content, I have some go-to Tumblrs, namely haylecakes.

So, in short, thanks a lot, Tumblr for making me realise how uncool and traditional I happen to be when it comes to blogging (among other things). You don't need me with your hoards of users. Have a nice internet life; I'll be here after your popularity fades away like a nauseatingly overused slide transition on Powerpoint.

Appreciation

Sara, who I wrote about in an earlier post, read all the entries on my blog. Every single once since June. Over the halfterm. Wow! I'm really flattered that she took so much time out of her day to read it :) She says she wants other people to know about my blog, too. That's really lovely of her.

I think I want to go to some kind of Drama summer school next summer. Not just the ones they do at school for younger years, but those really exclusive ones with the entry requirement being impressing at auditions.

I think I'm getting the hang of blogging

You blog when you want and you write as much as you want. You don't obey rules. If you want to do all those quizzes, you do them. You express as much as you want. A blog is as anonymous as you make it. I'm Abby. I'm 15. Learn more about me if you want, or just leave it at that.

For me, my blog is one of the things that I hope to look back on years later (if it still exists) and follow my journey through, well, life. I've been blogging for nearly four months, but already I feel like it's been years. It's really sticking. I can build up an accurate image of myself over time. And you can interpret that however you want.

My first lines on this blog were:

We must start somewhere...

...And that's here. And that's me a couple of years getting stuck in the mud. Or dancing - you choose. Hi, I'm Abby and I currently have green nails and pink hands, because:

Well, if you want to know the reasons, read the first post! http://greennailsandpinkhands.blogspot.com/2009_06_01_archive.html

There's a picture of me that relates to the explanation given in that opening paragraph. Go on, have a look.

See, back then I was so different in blogging terms (probably not so much in real life, although I changed a bit over the summer). I was afraid to be anything but overtly (and sometimes overly) formal and 'posh'. I had less of an attitude. But this new tone that I've taken on isn't a bad thing. It's the me that I really am. Four words to describe the me that very few see (but still a very valid side) are cyncial, pedantic, stubborn and argumentative. I say this all the time, but it's true.

Welcome back

A good blog is back, in a new reincarnation, but still back. I'm happy about that.

Hershi :)

A girl I know. A rather fantastic one, actually. The odd thing is that in many ways we're complete opposites.

Okay, we do have some similarities, such as:

• We both really, REALLY love cats
• We love photography almost as much as that
• We're both quite intelligent
• We both do stupid things from time to time
• We're both extremely clumsy
• We both like Little Boots
• We both love to dance to weird techno dance music

But in many other ways we're incredibly different:

• Me - extrovert, Hershi - introvert
• Me - loves change and variety in days, Hershi - hates disruption of routine
• Me - very good at reading people, Hershi - finds this difficult
• Me - has basically lived in skinny jeans out of school for the past year, Hershi - doesn't like jeans
• Me - very private person, Hershi - more willing to talk openly about things
• Me - loves spiders, Hershi - scared of them
• Me - likes alternative music (e.g. Regina Spektor), Hershi - likes a lot of heavy metal
• Me - likes loud atmospheres such as concerts and parties, Hershi - doesn't so much
• Me - never really in a state of 'hyperness', just happiness, Hershi - gets hyper a lot
• Me - loves all bright colours, doesn't wear much black at all, Hershi - wears mostly black with bits of red and dark purple