Currently, I quite like simultaneous equations

I've just been running some through my head quickly.

Oh, and also I'd very much like a Periodic Table shower curtain: http://www.firebox.com/product/1912/Periodic-Table-Shower-Curtain The only problem is, now we have a shower screen in the bath room so it would be useless. However, I'm still tempted to buy it and hang it in my room.

The aforementioned Chemistry homework did prove to be somewhat enjoyable. Granted, it was a little tedious answering multiple questions with exactly the same information, but I really do love anything scientific. I can't wait until A-level when it gets difficult and more interesting.

My desire to be a doctor is growing ever-stronger, and though it's a daunting prospect I really can envision myself applying for medical school. Prepare to sell a house, Daddy; it looks like I'm going to be in the education system for a lot longer. (I'm joking, but my parents did say that one of the houses we rent out is going to pay for my university fee so hopefully house prices will remain reasonable until then)

Je le ferai

I think that I'll do it. I'll take at least one language (probably French) along with my sciences/maths. Then, part way through my A-levels, I can decide whether I'm going to pursue sciences or languages in life. I love both areas so at this stage I can't possibly dedicate my future to one of them.

It's bad to wander aimlessly in life

Well, it used to be, but not anymore. My future, so to speak, technically started when I picked my GCSE options about a year and a half ago. At that point, I told myself that I was going to do well in whatever I did because I was determined to do so. I'd revise for everything and only be happy when I was achieving my very best. Something that's very important to understand is for success that at GCSE level and above, it takes more than natural aptitude - it takes a lot of hard work.

However, now I really need to choose my life paths and decide on A-level and university options. Some of my ideal jobs (in no particular order) are:
* Biologist of some sort, perhaps researching genetics, evolution or animal biology
* Something to do with medicine. Doctor is the obvious job, but there are so many options to explore
* Intepreter, translater or anything to do with languages
* Psychologist - this is one that I'm really not sure about but I do love analysing others
* Journalist - I enjoy writing, interviewing people and reporting so it seems good
* Presenter - I took a career aptitude test and this came up as my number one option. It does sound like an amazing job, but difficult to get into
* Director/Film maker/Script writer - what can I say? It just feels natural to me
* A writer of any other kind, I suppose
* Photographer/Artist - it would be very abstract art and would channel my condemnation for school art which seems to consist of copying other artists' work or still-life drawing. Where's the creativity?
* And of course, the longest surving dream... An actress! At times drama feels like the only thing I have to look forward to anymore and it's been a passion of mine for about five years now

Of course, I'll most likely take a very academic route. I'll decide on something, I'm sure :)

My laptop's ailing...

The cable went wrong again so the battery is running out fast. Thus, I'm on my parents' five-year-old computer at the moment. Fortunately, it has a shiny new widescreen monitor.

Friday was a joyous day for me. I spent the whole summer holiday (seven and a half weeks) worrying about something to find that it turned out more than okay - it turned out absolutely amazing. This has spurred me on and I'm looking forward to next summer. I'll finally maybe have a bit of wreckless fun and be carefree again.

Over the summer I had to write a monolgue for Drama based on the stimulus 'Blood, Sweat, Tears and Tantrums'. Horribly cliche, I know, but I managed in the end. I wrote four monologues and was only happy with the last one, which I wrote today while listening to Regina Spektor. It's amazing that no matter what her songs are about, at least one of them always manages to inspire me.

In around 31 or so weeks I will be free from my secondary school. I really, really, really can't wait for that day. Sixth form college and university will ensue. And so will happiness (hopefully).

Hmm, I'll make no apologies for this post even though I think it's slightly boring. It's a Sunday - what can I say?

Admiration

Today I heard my father on the radio and it made me really want to follow in his footsteps. He's a comedian and I've always thought that would be a great career to have. It's not always stable, but the feeling of amusing people is so rewarding that it doesn't matter.

I think I'd love to be so many things at once - actress, comedian, author, photographer and so many other things that I've considered. But they're the four main dreams. It's odd that none of them are particularly academic. Even so, I'll probably do a degree in some kind of science/psychology/philosophy at university if the whole RADA dream fails. Ultimately, I want to do both. I want to have an academic career and a creative career.

Hmm, I never imagined myself to be the kind of child saying 'When I grow up, I want to be just like my mummy/daddy'. Well, in some ways I do. I wouldn't want my mum's career (being a secretary seems a bit tedious) but I hope I've inherited her compassion and warm heart (and on a purely vain note, her young, relatively wrinkle-free skin). And I'd like my dad's comedy skills and that something about him that's hard to put my finger on but draws people in. Also, thankfully I think I have his fast metabolism. Both parents have plenty of charisma so I hope I've got that, too.

RADA

I've been searching for my true identity for my entire adolescence, but I now realise that it's been here all along. My dream is my identity.

I remember watching Blue Peter when I was about 11 (which was strange because I hardly ever watched it) and seeing one of the presenters visit RADA, the most prestigious and reputable drama school in the country. It seemed simply amazing - a highly exclusive group of promising young actors given the best acting advice anyone could receive. From that moment I had the recurrent vision of myself in that university training for the BA in acting, living out my dream.

I've never given up on that dream. No matter how convential it sounds, I've always wanted to be an actress and drama has been my only solace at times. A bad day, bad week or even a bad year can be remedied by stepping out of your own shoes and into those of another person's - anyone,
anywhere. I can be anything, do anything, in front of an audience that are all watching me, and at the end I might get a fraction of the applause.

Two years from now I'll be applying for universities and I'm quite positive that RADA will be at the top of my list of choices. Maybe it's not a realistic choice, and admittedly dreams of being an actress could be just that - dreams, but it's good to aim high. Consider this: in the conception of a baby, no one considers how slim the chances of the egg being fertilised by the sperm are. Whether someone wants a baby or not, they always think about the prospect of conceptionnd new life. So why should I focus on not getting in to RADA when I may very well have the potential?