It's funny how concerned I am about self-preservation

For example:

• I probably wouldn't wear high heels regularly because of the horrific bunions they can cause
• I don't like wearing heavy earrings because they can lead to misshapen, stretched earlobes
• I'm incredibly meticulous about every aspect of personal hygiene, especially dental care
• The idea of wearing foundation doesn't appeal to me because of its pore-clogging effect
• I spend a considerable amount of money on skincare
• I don't listen to loud music because I'd hate to lose part (or all) of my hearing
• I vehemently refuse to eat food even a day out of date because food poisoning is a frightening prospect
• I take vitamins C and D everyday and sometimes have an extra multivitamin, just as supplements
• I do regular brain exercises to stay mentally fit (yes, perhaps I should pay a little more attention to the physical side sometimes, but I do walk regularly and eat healthily most of the time so that's something)

Image

It's odd looking at pictures of myself from when I was under 7. I was really thin. Thin. I don't really remember ever being less than normal size, so to see pictures of clothes that looked to big for my slight frame is really strange.

However, this thinness soon faded. From the ages of around 8 to 12 I was chubby. Not exactly overweight, probably not fat, just a normal level of chubby. I significantly remember noticing that I was bigger than everyone else - not just in height, but in size, too. Despite this, body image was never a concern to me. I accepted my chubbiness and resigned myself to the fact that I would just be intelligent, funny, kind and, in my eyes, a bit fat - you can't have it all, can you?

So imagine the shock when at approximately 13 years old, my body evened out and everything was suddenly in proportion. I was left with only a little bit of fat but that was normal and I felt right.

I don't own a set of scales, but I know that my weight and size fluctuate. That's fine as I have much more important things to care about than my waist size. I've promised myself something for this academic year - I don't care if I get bigger or smaller in the coming months as long as I achieve my best possible grades. Besides, I love food far too much to diet.