Music and miscellaneous...ities

I love this song at the moment. Probably always. Particularly the steel drums. It's incredibly hedonistic. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N-wIvsZBFhQ

Originally I heard the song on the radio through the wall separating my bedroom and the office. I vividly remembered hearing the phrase 'Shock shock horror horror' and thankfully through that I found it.

Generally, I don't like 'old' music much. That previous song, from the 90s, is about as far back as it extends. Except for this. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pjsh2j7W6Bo

Today, just as I was savouring my ability to stay in bed at 9.30 am, my mum came into my room with a phonecall from my drama teacher. I'd signed up to help with a drama summer school for Gifted and Talented children and she needed my help today and tomorrow. I agreed and promptly got ready and rushed to my school, hair still rather wet. Thankfully, a friend from my drama class, Amber, was also there so I wasn't completely swamped by children aged between 10 and 13.

It was strange feeling different and having authority, but good. Everyone thought we were some kind of drama professionals... That is until I fulfilled my childhood dream of rolling down the sloping purple corridor at school.

I think we did help the performers with their pieces. I could tell they already had a lot of potential and will be good in further drama opportunities. One girl in particular, Bethany, seemed mature beyond her years and very independent. She knew hor to lead her group, however there were a few arguments when she was accused of being bossy.

It's their performance tomorrow and Amber and I may have to take some parts in it but that's fine. We're working on a Sci-fi voiceover thing so I better go and devise that now.

Disappointment

So, even though I know I saw that Bruno was a 15 somewhere, it turns out that the 18 version is currently being shown (it has three minutes including something about pretending to have oral sex with a dead body) so I couldn't see it. The woman serving us at the cinema asked me how old I was and I knew that she wouldn't believe that I was 18. I've always looked older than my age, but I think now it's catching up with me. To be fair, I wear no makeup and often have my hair up so that does make me look younger and it wouldn't be too hard for me to look 18. Apparently in a few weeks (once all the >18 year olds have seen it) they'll start showing the 15 version. I think I'll just wait for the DVD. I don't want to miss out on any extra rudeness :)

I did feel like giving the woman a lecture. Really, how much worse can Bruno be than Borat? That was a 15, and a very good one too which I've seen many, many times. That has racism, sexism, strong language and a long scene consisting entirely of two naked men fighting in a hotel and eventually ending up on stage in front of hundreds of people at a cinema.

Me and my father then went to Starbucks where I ordered a chocolate cream Frappuccino but it took a long time so my dad went to check and it turned out that my first drink had been taken by another customer. We ordered again, and after a while my second drink had been customer. Frustrated, we ordered for a third time. Thankfully, it got to us then and was upgraded to the largest size for free.

So, I suppose it all worked out alright in the end. I only have to wait a few months to see Bruno. Still, it's quite disappointing.

On an irrelevant note, I've never been able to eat ice cream from a tub, for these reasons:

1) I like to decide how much of something I'm going to eat so I don't overindulge, and with a tub it would be quite easy to finish the whole thing off.

2) What if someone else wants some of the ice cream? I know I wouldn't want someone else double-dipping their spoon into my potential dessert.

3) I'd feel so... well, I assume I'd feel like those women on sit-coms that eat ice cream to get over ex-boyfriends.

So I like bowls. M&S ice cream bowls :)

Appreciation

I am under the firm belief that one of the best things anyone a little unhappy with life can do is to make a list of the good things in life. At least 10.

1) I'm fortunate. I have amazing family and friends, lovely pets, solid shelter, a warm bed, three meals a day, unlimited hot and cold water, good health, adequately fitting clothes and shoes, my own room, an education, a computer, a TV, books, toiltetries, music, holidays, money, opportunities etc.

2) I'm surrounded by people who support me and encourage me to try new things even when I'm doubtful that I'll be good enough.

3) I have good GCSE grades and should be able to get into the college of my choice.

4) I have a follower :D

5) I have the belief that though my dreams are ambitious and often outlandish, they're still achievable.

6) I'm quite tall, my hair's very healthy with no split ends though I haven't cut it in two years, my cheekbones are well-defined and I have a fast metabolism.

7) I've found a hobby that I love so much I'd be willing to do it forever as a career.

8) I mean something to people.

9) I always have London to return to.

10) I'm going to see Avenue Q in a month and 5 days :D

And, now that I think about it, there are quite a few more things, but that's enough for now. I may also start stating three things that have been good about each day. Okay, for today:

1) I went to a Chinese buffet and had two full plates of yummy (but quite unhealthy) food...

2) ...BUT I walked to and from town so that counts as some exercise

3) Sims 3 is progressing and two of my characters are well on the way to achieving their lifetime wishes :)

Ever so slight controversy

I don't like Harry Potter. I really don't. Hence the reason that tomorrow I will not be watching it at the cinema, but will instead go to see Brüno with my father, hopefully not getting caught in the crowds of fans dressed as wizards.

I'd choose flamboyant homosexuals over fantasy and magic any day :)

Wow

Perhaps I sometimes worry excessively because I know what's going to happen so I'm given an opportunity to dread it. Maybe my life would work out better for me if it was more spontaneous. Then again, one can always be apprehensive about the uncertainty of the future.

People tell me that I'd look pretty with straightened hair and makeup, but then isn't that just saying that my mask is pretty, and not the actual me? Therefore, I feel most honoured when someone compliments my appearance when I have my hair up in a ponytail.

I secretly really, really, enjoy watching makeup videos on Youtube even though I don't wear any makeup.

I already dislike the dusting of a tan that the sun has given me with a few sprinkles of burning. This is odd considering I have been regularly applying SPF 25 suncream.

I wash my hair everyday unless I have no intention of leaving the house. And I'm very meticulous about my showering and toothbrushing habits, also.

There are so many people that I see and think 'I want to be you' but I realise that even if their life seems to be much better than mine, there's always an attribute of myself that I wouldn't be willing to give up just to be someone else. Well, nearly always.

How do I have 49 profile views? Hmm, interesting.

I really want to start making Youtube videos, but I'm still unsure about it. I'd like to be part of the nerdfighter community (not people who fight nerds, rather nerds that fight, but not literally... oh, just go her http://nerdfighters.ning.com/)

I'd quite like to go to Alton Towers after having to go to Drayton Manor for 3 years.

More people should really own cats.

Only 3 more years that I have to stay here, only one more year at secondary school.

A friend's rabbit just died :(

That's all for now.

Admiration

Today I heard my father on the radio and it made me really want to follow in his footsteps. He's a comedian and I've always thought that would be a great career to have. It's not always stable, but the feeling of amusing people is so rewarding that it doesn't matter.

I think I'd love to be so many things at once - actress, comedian, author, photographer and so many other things that I've considered. But they're the four main dreams. It's odd that none of them are particularly academic. Even so, I'll probably do a degree in some kind of science/psychology/philosophy at university if the whole RADA dream fails. Ultimately, I want to do both. I want to have an academic career and a creative career.

Hmm, I never imagined myself to be the kind of child saying 'When I grow up, I want to be just like my mummy/daddy'. Well, in some ways I do. I wouldn't want my mum's career (being a secretary seems a bit tedious) but I hope I've inherited her compassion and warm heart (and on a purely vain note, her young, relatively wrinkle-free skin). And I'd like my dad's comedy skills and that something about him that's hard to put my finger on but draws people in. Also, thankfully I think I have his fast metabolism. Both parents have plenty of charisma so I hope I've got that, too.

Another reason to love Drama (the acting kind)

Today in Drama we did a lot of improvisation and warm-up games. One of the most fun is when everyone adopts a character and an improvisation takes place in a particular situation, usually transport. These characters are taken through various emotions and phases, instructed by the teacher. Today it was on a cruise that all characters had won as a prize. My character was incredibly snobby and turned her nose up at the 'common' cruise, constantly professing that she could afford so much better. She was horrified to discover that champagne and caviar were not served, and could not cope without her milk bath that she expected to have run for her by the staff.

At one point, the scenario was that everyone had just gotten their period and the captain was the only man. It was incredibly funny (I think you'd have to be there) with everyone either filled with rage, pain, misery or a combination of the three. The best part was the captain trying to cope with the whole situation. I just hope I'm never on an all-women cruise where everyone has their period.

Last day of school tomorrow :) Then a 7 week summer. I just hope I can sort things out and be the me I really want to be by the end of it.