Friday, October 30, 2009

The cake has emerged

It's HUGE! Bigger than my head, bigger than any cake I've ever bought or made. I enjoyed making it and so did my mother so I just hope it's been worth it and that it tastes nice.


I'm going to Sam's house because it's his birthday (yes, it's on Halloween!) As I write a homemade chocolate cake is cooking in the oven. My mother and I aren't very experienced bakers and our kitchen is tiny so I just hope it goes well. Also, Sam's main present is a blue Slanket: When I ordered the Slanket it was about £10 cheaper, so I think I bought it at the right time. Hopefully it'll come tomorrow.

It's just so weird to think that Sam's turning 16. I've known him since we were 6! But tomorrow will be great. Unfortunately I'm missing a friend's Halloween party but I made the commitment to Sam ages ago and it's kind of a tradition for me to go and see him on his birthday, so I want to spend the day with him.

Also, it's strange that in less than seven months I'll be 16. 16! Mentally, since the age of 11 I've felt more mature than my years, but I have quite a young looking face. With makeup and the right clothes and hair I could probably look up to 18, but because I always wear my hair up it does tend to take a couple of years off. Oh well, it'll be helpful in the future and my parents and grand parents look much younger than they are so that's a good sign. In fact, my great grandmother remained looking much younger even when she was 100!

10 random facts

1) I know pretty much all the words to Avenue Q - songs, dialogue and I know the melodies and stage directions, too. I've seen it 4 times and plan to see it at least two more. Think what you may.

2) I've managed to sustain a friendship with a boy for nearly 10 years and there's never been a romantic element.

3) I'm the daughter of a comedian.

4) I'd secretly kind of like to be a bit like Peaches Geldof or Cory Kennedy in the apathetic fashionista way.

5) I'm one of the few people in my school who love languages.

6) From the age of seven I've wanted to be a doctor and have been reading medical text books since then.

7) If I want something, or think I can do something, I'll do it. I'm incredibly determined.

8) I'd love to go to Oxford or Cambridge university.

9) I've never been in a relationship or even kissed a boy.

10) I can name some MAC products just by looking at the colour.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

For once, I'm actually going to write about my day...

Because it's gone surprisingly well. English was neutral, I suppose. I annotated the poem 'To A Mouse' (which is where the name of 'Of Mice And Men' came from) and then had a double lesson of Spanish, with a 20 minute break in the middle. In the break I rehearsed my Drama piece with my group which accounts for 30% of my final Drama GCSE grade.

After Spanish I had French, and for some this may seem like an overload of languages. But I love French and Spanish and want to learn many more languages. In fact, considering I have Drama last lesson, Thursday would be my perfect day if I had Biology instead of English.

Anyway, Drama, Drama, Drama, Drama. We were supposed to have had six hours of lesson time to devise the final piece and it had to be 10 minutes or less. There were some problems with attendance but fortunately we had times at lunch time and after school to practise, too. One girl didn't attend many extra sessions and was being really difficult but we just wrote her a small part and got on with it.

Having eaten nothing all day, I performed it at 2.20 pm (I was the main character, playing a woman with Munchausen by proxy who ended up causing her daughter's liver failure) and all in all it went well. I think one of the lines may have been missed out but no one noticed. I'm just happy that it's over now because it was quite stressful. At one point I actually had a nightmare that we were performing and everything went wrong so I ended up crying. I'm so glad that didn't actually happen.

Overall, it's been quite good. But this will by no means be a regular feature of my blog.

Monday, October 26, 2009


Sara, who I wrote about in an earlier post, read all the entries on my blog. Every single once since June. Over the halfterm. Wow! I'm really flattered that she took so much time out of her day to read it :) She says she wants other people to know about my blog, too. That's really lovely of her.

I think I want to go to some kind of Drama summer school next summer. Not just the ones they do at school for younger years, but those really exclusive ones with the entry requirement being impressing at auditions.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Oh, to have an alternative mother

The second round of the HPV injections are tomorrow and once again I'm not having them. My mother and I are both strongly opposed to these vaccinations specifically so I will be sitting and watching as everyone gets stabbed in the arm with a needle. I try to empathise but it's not an easy feat when I haven't had a vaccination since I was a few months old so do not remember the feeling.

It's weird - I felt strange, unsafe and awkward occasionally in Dublin (where I was from Tuesday to Friday), but now having reflected on my experience it was enjoyable. However, it's no London and can't even compare. I like capital cities that have tube trains and a great theatre culture. Dublin does have some great restaurants, though, such as Yamamori - noodles and sushi, Cornucopia - vegetarian and vegan and the restaurant at the Chester Beaty library - Mediterranean and Greek.

Sunday, October 18, 2009


It's odd looking at pictures of myself from when I was under 7. I was really thin. Thin. I don't really remember ever being less than normal size, so to see pictures of clothes that looked to big for my slight frame is really strange.

However, this thinness soon faded. From the ages of around 8 to 12 I was chubby. Not exactly overweight, probably not fat, just a normal level of chubby. I significantly remember noticing that I was bigger than everyone else - not just in height, but in size, too. Despite this, body image was never a concern to me. I accepted my chubbiness and resigned myself to the fact that I would just be intelligent, funny, kind and, in my eyes, a bit fat - you can't have it all, can you?

So imagine the shock when at approximately 13 years old, my body evened out and everything was suddenly in proportion. I was left with only a little bit of fat but that was normal and I felt right.

I don't own a set of scales, but I know that my weight and size fluctuate. That's fine as I have much more important things to care about than my waist size. I've promised myself something for this academic year - I don't care if I get bigger or smaller in the coming months as long as I achieve my best possible grades. Besides, I love food far too much to diet.


I managed to do the second half of my English letter and fill in the oral booklet for French, so technically I've done most of my half term homework already. Except revision, that is. But I will do that in due course, so that will be done in sessions over the next week.

I think I'll have a bath now.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

5 pies away from a free pie :D

I do rather like pie (vegetarian, of course)

Sorry, I NEED one

(Again, if you're Sara there's a post dedicated to you further down the page)

I could not imagine life without a shower. I feel I have to have a shower before I go out otherwise I feel ill and paranoid.

I'm going to Ireland on Tuesday and during the holiday we're having the bathroom refurbished. I asked for it to be done in this time so I wouldn't have to suffer the horror of not having a shower or at least a bath.

However, the refurbishment is going to start on Tuesday morning meaning that, should I stay at home until I have to leave for Ireland, I would be unable to have a shower until I got to to the hotel.

Therefore, I plan to stay at my grandparents' house on Monday night so I can have a shower in the morning (oh, and to spend time with them too, of course!). They will then drop me off at the train station.

Also, I plan to sneak my science books into my bag so I can revise on holiday. This probably seems ridiculous by mock exams are a month and 10 days away and the marks go towards my predicted grades so I really want to do well.

Friday, October 16, 2009

Teacher Abby

(If you're Sara, there's a post dedicated to you after this one)

In Maths today everyone was asking me for help with surds at once so I ended up teaching the class on the interactive white board. It was quite fun, actually. And apparently they understood it so that's great :)

It's half term now, which is rather good but I have loads of work to do. Let's review:
* English Language - second half of the Derek Bentley letter
* Chemistry - some questions which are in my planner but I can't remember them at the moment
* Biology - see above
* Physics - mark homework
* French - write first draft of coursework and fill in Oral booklet
* Spanish - write one minute presentation and fill in Oral booklet
* Drama - roughly devise script
* Revision in general - all three sciences, languages, RS Short Course, possibly History and techniques for answering English Language questions

Oh, and I'll be in Ireland from Tuesday to Friday so my holiday's going to be packed. I'm not going to have a social life but that's fine. The things due in for Monday are the English letter, Physics and French (oh, and I have Drama on Monday so I'll write the script before then), so:
* I'll try to do the English letter this weekend
* I'll at least make a start on the French homework - maybe do the coursework before Ireland and the Oral booklet after
* The Drama script is just to be written whenever I have the ideas - this could be in the middle of the night
* The Physics homework shouldn't take more than half an hour so that can be done next weekend
* I'm going to try to make some revision notes/flash cards so I can revise on holiday, specifically for science

The rest of the homework can be done the week back at school because it's due in at some point in that week and not the Monday back. I can do this.

Hi Sara...

...if you're reading this. I hope you enjoy it :)

Sara's a very close friend of mine who I've known since the first day of Year 7, when we were 11. Every lesson with her is interesting and fun, though apparently when we sat next to each other in year seven I was quite the contrary - getting on with my work diligently and only looking up occasionally and nodding. Thankfully I contribute a bit more to our conversations now as I've learnt to multitask.

Anyway, Sara's constantly amusing, strongly willed (she tried to start up a business) yet laid-back in the right way at the same time. She manages to get everything done, yet rarely gets worried and takes things as they come. She's been a very good influence on me and I don't know what I'd do without her sitting next to me in Maths.

Sara's just a very entertaining and charismatic person without trying too hard to be and she's an amazing friend. I remember when we used to go to Nandos every week - that just came to mind so I thought I'd share it.

Have a good half term :)

Finish the sentences

1. I've come to realize that... blogging is fun.

2. I am listening to... the TV.

3. I talk... the right amount. Not excessively, just enough.

4. I love... some things.

5. My best friend/s... are ineffable.

6. My first real kiss... hasn't happened yet.

7. Love is... able to exist in many different forms.

8. Marriage is... a piece of paper, a couple of rings, £9000 for a day and often ends in divorce. The party's fun, though.

9. Somewhere, someone is thinking... about me?

10. I'll always be... determined.

11. The last time I really cried was... some time this year.

12. My cell phone... is hardly ever used.

13. When I wake up in the morning... I rush.

14. Before I go to bed... I reflect.

15. Right now I am thinking... about the next week.

16. Babies are... hard to understand, and not cute in my opinion.

17. I get on Myspace... never.

18. Today I miss... Lucy.

19. Tomorrow... might be good.

20. I really want to be... successful, happy and content.

21. Someone that will most likely repost this is... Hershi.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

It's bad to wander aimlessly in life

Well, it used to be, but not anymore. My future, so to speak, technically started when I picked my GCSE options about a year and a half ago. At that point, I told myself that I was going to do well in whatever I did because I was determined to do so. I'd revise for everything and only be happy when I was achieving my very best. Something that's very important to understand is for success that at GCSE level and above, it takes more than natural aptitude - it takes a lot of hard work.

However, now I really need to choose my life paths and decide on A-level and university options. Some of my ideal jobs (in no particular order) are:
* Biologist of some sort, perhaps researching genetics, evolution or animal biology
* Something to do with medicine. Doctor is the obvious job, but there are so many options to explore
* Intepreter, translater or anything to do with languages
* Psychologist - this is one that I'm really not sure about but I do love analysing others
* Journalist - I enjoy writing, interviewing people and reporting so it seems good
* Presenter - I took a career aptitude test and this came up as my number one option. It does sound like an amazing job, but difficult to get into
* Director/Film maker/Script writer - what can I say? It just feels natural to me
* A writer of any other kind, I suppose
* Photographer/Artist - it would be very abstract art and would channel my condemnation for school art which seems to consist of copying other artists' work or still-life drawing. Where's the creativity?
* And of course, the longest surving dream... An actress! At times drama feels like the only thing I have to look forward to anymore and it's been a passion of mine for about five years now

Of course, I'll most likely take a very academic route. I'll decide on something, I'm sure :)

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Four posts in one day? Proposterous!

Yeah, it's one of these again:

Would you date an 18 year old at the age you are now?
Hmm, probably not. I'm a mature 15-year-old in most areas, but not when it comes to relationships as I have no experience. So I doubt it would work.

When's the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?
I don't know if that's ever happened.

Have you ever kissed someone with a name starting with D,C or J ,if so who?

Would you ever smile at a stranger?
Yeah, all the time. It's nice to smile.

Is there someone mad, because you're dating the person you're dating?
I'm not dating anyone.

Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?

What exactly are you wearing now?

How often do you listen to music?
Usually every day.

If you could change your eye color would you?
I used to want to. I think I'd like more green eyes because mine are a green/brown/amber combination. But I'm happy with them and still like them so I wouldn't.

Who is your most recent text message from?
I hardly ever use my phone, so N/A.

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Hmm, most people, but not anyone evil like Hitler.

Is there a boy/girl that you would do absolutely everything for?
Er, well anything can mean a lot of things, but there are lots of people that I'd do lots of things for.

Name something you dislike about the day you're having?
Someone was sick on the floor at school and I saw it *gags*

Are you dating the last person you talked to on the phone?
No, although many people believe I'm in love with Sam.

Who was the last person you talked to in person?
My mother.

Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
My mother.

Are you anything like you were at this point last year?
Yes, but I'm so much more focused on what I want out of life.

Honestly, what are you thinking about right now?
Making a revision timetable.

Are you into sports?
NOOOOOoooooooo. Except maybe trampolining - I used to enjoy it when we had to do it for PE.

Who knows a secret about you that no one else does?
A few people know a few different things about me that no one else knows.

Have you kissed anyone today?

Are you addicted to texting?
No, quite the contrary, actually.

Do you have someone who you can be your complete self around?
Yes, a few people.

Do you think it's possible to fall in love with someone in just 2 weeks?
I wouldn't know, so I don't know.

Is any part of you sad at all?
Yes, a bit.

Does it take a lot for you to cry?
Not really.

Ever receive a really long apology?
Yes, it was really needed.

Do you give out second chances too easily?

When was the last time you wanted to just crawl in a hole and die?
Probably some time this year.

What was the last thing that upset you?
Oh, I can't answer this. I don't like answering these ones.

Are there any words you absolutely hate?
When people use 'well' when it should be 'very' or 'really'. Oh and the phases 'At the end of the day' and 'I gave it 110%'

One person people think you look similar to:
Hmm, that's difficult. My mother, but that's to be expected.

Who is the most recent addition to your contacts?
I'm not sure, I haven't used MSN in absolutely ages.

Is there anybody you think is hot over the age of 40?

Who is the worst person you have ever shared a bed with?
I don't know.

Do you have to watch yourself in the mirror while you brush your teeth?

What year in your life do you think you were the least attractive?
When I was 10-12.

Do you have any nicknames?
I've said this before, I can't be bothered to say it again.

How often do you wear necklaces?

Did anything bad happen to you in august?

Do you have a morning routine?
Kind of, but the times vary. I just have to brush my teeth, cleanse and moisturise my face, shower, wash my hair if it hasn't been washed the night before, brush my hair, drink some water apply deodorant and lip balm, go to the loo, check my bag, say bye to my mother and I'm off.

If you are getting up early on a saturday it's most likely...
To go to town with Adie.

Do you get tanned easily?
Ha ha, no, I don't tan and I don't let myself even try to tan. I like my pale skin.

Do you save messages in your cell?

Are you thinking anything now?
Lots of things.

Was the last time your heart pounded like crazy for a good or bad reason?
Today when I was getting my English essay back, thinking it might be bad.

Have you ever wanted to never give up on someone but did?
I don't think I did give up on them.

Where did you get the pants you're wearing tomorrow?
Probably M&S - they're school trousers.

Would you rather text or use MSN?

What are you doing other than this survey?
Listening to Regina Spektor (surpise).

Do you shop at Aeropostale?
No, isn't that American?

Do you apologize?
Yes, too much.

Do you believe in forever?
No - let's face it, everything's transient, but some things last a really long time.

When was the last time it rained?
I don't know.

Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your own bed?
I'm not sure, maybe my sofa.

What do you hear?
Regina Spektor - Chemo Limo. Words can't describe how much I love her melodies and lyrics.

When was the last time you wanted to punch babies?
:O Never! Who do you think I am?

Do you automatically check your phone when you wake up?

What rapper should find a new career?
All of them, in my humble opinion.

Who was the last person that told you good night?
My mother.

Have you heard 'We Belong Together' by Mariah Carey?
Yes, I don't like it.

Have you ever been in a hospital?

Who woke you up today?
My alarm clock.

What were you doing at midnight last night?

Who would you like to push off from a cliff?
No one.

Could you go a whole year without cursing?

What was the last compliment you received?
'Aw, Abby must be one of the nicest people in the school!' - Sumaiyah. Thank you so much, that was touching.

Who was the last person you last saw that was ugly?
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

So the last person you kissed asks you to marry them, you say?
I've never kissed anyone.

What are your plans for your next birthday?
Postpone it till my GCSEs are done, then go to London, maybe Paris and perhaps some other lovely European cities.

How many days til your next birthday?
Quite a few - 7 months.

Does anyone disgust you?
Yes, well, their habits.

Do you enjoy your life?
The charming parts.

Ever felt like you weren't pretty enough?
Yes, then I forgot about it.

Has anyone made you feel like crap lately for something they did?
Not really.

Is it okay to kiss people when you're single?
Hmm, I suppose if you tell the person it's frivolous.

What color is your cell phone?
I don't know anymore!

Who was the last person to ask you a stupid question?
I don't know.

Is there someone who continuously lets you down?
I don't think so.

Can you honestly say you're okay right now ?
Not entirely.

Do you remember the first time you kissed, the last person you kissed?
I've never kissed anyone, except on the cheeks.

Do you think about anyone before you go to bed?
Lots of people.

Soooo, will you be sleeping on the floor tonight?
No, I have a bed.

Do you have OCD?
There's a strong possibility that I do.

Do you have something that belongs to someone from your past?
Yes, things of my great-grandma's that I inherited when she died.

Lost any friends this year?
I don't think so.

Who was the last person that hurt you and never apologized?
Hmm, let's keep that private, yeah? But it's definitely not you, Hershi :)

Who was the last person that made fun of you?
I think someone yesterday, but I don't know who exactly it was.

What are you going to do tomorrow?
School, school work, revision.

Who will you be with tomorrow ?
School people - friends, others, teachers.

Do you like road trips?
Sometimes they can be fun.

do you trust anyone 100%?
Yes, or near enough.

Where did you get the last shoes you wore?
Clarks. I have size eight feet that are very long and thin so shoe shopping's difficult.

When was the last time you pulled an all nighter?

How's your heart lately?
Healthy, hopefully.

Are you sick ?

The last person you kissed on the lips, are they attractive?
I've never kissed anyone on the lips.

What are you excited for?
GCSEs being over.

Are you good at hiding your feelings?

Nobody needs to know who you like?
I suppose so, it can be used to your disadvantage.

Where is the person you miss the MOST right now?
In her house, experiencing possibly the greatest pain that exists. Perhaps even worse than childbirth, according to doctors.

I think I'm getting the hang of blogging

You blog when you want and you write as much as you want. You don't obey rules. If you want to do all those quizzes, you do them. You express as much as you want. A blog is as anonymous as you make it. I'm Abby. I'm 15. Learn more about me if you want, or just leave it at that.

For me, my blog is one of the things that I hope to look back on years later (if it still exists) and follow my journey through, well, life. I've been blogging for nearly four months, but already I feel like it's been years. It's really sticking. I can build up an accurate image of myself over time. And you can interpret that however you want.

My first lines on this blog were:

We must start somewhere...

...And that's here. And that's me a couple of years getting stuck in the mud. Or dancing - you choose. Hi, I'm Abby and I currently have green nails and pink hands, because:

Well, if you want to know the reasons, read the first post!

There's a picture of me that relates to the explanation given in that opening paragraph. Go on, have a look.

See, back then I was so different in blogging terms (probably not so much in real life, although I changed a bit over the summer). I was afraid to be anything but overtly (and sometimes overly) formal and 'posh'. I had less of an attitude. But this new tone that I've taken on isn't a bad thing. It's the me that I really am. Four words to describe the me that very few see (but still a very valid side) are cyncial, pedantic, stubborn and argumentative. I say this all the time, but it's true.

Mur à mur

I changed one of my most frewuently-used website's language setting to French. In a few days/weeks I'll change it to Spanish and then alternate. It's proving quite helpful. Yeah, I really love languages.

Welcome back

A good blog is back, in a new reincarnation, but still back. I'm happy about that.

Monday, October 12, 2009

Oh yeah

Iré a España con mi colegio en el año que viene para cuatro días. Sera fenomenal :)

Autumn's pleasant

The crisp cold, the first time you can see your breath, the flushed pink cheeks. Oh, and my hands turn an interesting combination of coral and purple. It's lovely, really.

There's something about autumn/winter coats - they exude sophistication (if they're the right cut and colour, obviously) even when paired with casual clothing.

I went to a sixth-form college open day on Saturday. It was... nice. The scinece department was good, but the rest was uninspiring. The rooms were dull and the curtains looked like they were as old as me. I just knew it wasn't right. Oh, and the languages department was small and unimpressive which is a definite no. I love languages too much for that. Well, it didn't chane my decision at all - I'm going for my original choice of college.

Some people who take art for GCSE at my school have just got back from their trip to Cornwall. Now, I love art galleries and really want to see the Eden Project but I'd hate to be constantly skecthing and that's what they seemed to be doing. This only reinforces my choices of Drama and Spanish (two of my favourite subjects, too).


My hair. I'm sure no one cares much about my hair, but it has an interesting history.

I haven't had my hair cut since July 2007 but once I went four years without having it cut. I know this is weird, but my hair is in very good condition despite the lack of cutting. No split ends no dryness. I think this is because I never use heat on it. Ever. I let it air dry, brush it and I'm done. I love the feeling of walking out into the cold with freshly washed, slightly damp hair. And, no, it doesn't make me ill.

I wash my hair every day because I just don't feel right if I haven't. I don't know why, and obviously everyone's comfortable with different amounts of hair washing, but that's just me. As my hair is over half way down my back it takes a long time to brush on my own. My mum used to do it for me but one day my dad had to as she was ill and he really enjoyed it so we've made it a daily thing. He's surprisingly good at it and very patient with the tangles.

Some may consider a whole post dedicated to my hair superficial, but we've been through a lot together. It's seen the two most eventful, manic years of my life so far. But it's missed Lucy. A lot of Lucy. I have this vision of me just getting a drastic haircut at the end of my GCSEs to symbolise a new phase of life, leaving everything else behind. That hair will hold my problems and as it'll be gone, hopefully I can leave those problems behind too.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

I've been thinking...

What if I had to describe myself in 10 statements? What would I say? Okay, so, some things people might like/need to know:

1) I'm very cynical, pedantic, stubborn and argumentative. And that'll never change.

2) I don't have a dirty mind and I'm not crude, but that doesn't mean I'm naive.

3) I'm fairly reserved and a closed person so it's unlikely that I'll express any deep or significant feelings at the time of having them to anyone around me.

4) I'm a vegetarian, but I don't expect to convert anyone. Just accept my lifestyle and I'll accept yours. However, I draw the line at fur and animal testing on cosmetics.

5) Don't expect to be able to understand my ways of thinking or my excessive hand washing.

6) I'm extremely passionate about the things I love (Drama, Languages, ScienceS, sometimes Maths) and as I'm highly academic this can affect my social life. GCSEs are a high priority and nothing can change that. I'm prepared to sacrifice fun for that.

7) I like a lot of music but the only thing that I listen to at the moment is Regina Spektor. And, no, I haven't got bored of her songs.

8) My pensive face is not my worried face. But I do appreciate when people ask if I'm okay.

9) I have incredibly high will-power and can resist most temptation. Examples:
* I once went four years without cutting my hair. At the moment I've gone for 2 and a quarter years without having it cut.
* I haven't bought new clothes properly (apart from a couple of spare pairs of jeans) since February 2008.
* I postponed my birthday from this year which was in May and haven't even asked for anything from my parents yet.
* I gave up crisps (which used to be my favourite food) for nine weeks. This is a long time for a 12-year-old.
* I jumped on a trampoline 1000 times in a row for £5.

10) I hate prejudice and discrination of all kinds and will happily talk to anyone as long as they're pleasant.

I wish I could say that was about it, but there's a lot more that I wanted to right. Oh well, give it time.

22:22 is good

22:22 is good.
Strangely good.
I've always liked that time.
I wish for everything I could want
When I see those numbers on my clock.
It's almost perfect.
Two to the power of four.
Two add two add two add two.
Four divided by two is two.
Two add two is four.
It's so even.
Fortunately, it's not perfect.
Perfection is a boring idea.
It's not perfect
Because it never lasts.
It's always transient.
But it's good.
A rather good time.

PLEASE NOTE: This really wasn't meant to be poetry (that would be awfully pretentious of me), I just felt that it would be nice to spread it out in this structure becuase it consists of many short, staccato bursts of words.

Friday, October 9, 2009

And there's more :|

Do you have plans for next friday?
Going to school and then coming back from school and relaxing, I suppose.

Do you curse in front of your parents?
I don't really swear in front of anyone unless quoting - it just sounds force when I swear.

Does anyone hate you?
I doubt it. But some chavs immediately 'hated' me when they met me because of my accent and demeanour as they automatically assumed that I felt as if I was superior to them.

How late did you stay up last night?
About 11.

Did you see your best friends today?
Yes, some of them.

When was the last time you really laughed?
Today, I think.

Do you drink regular or diet sodas?
Diet when possibly. I'm very meticulous about dental care and cavity protection.

Where were you at 4:30 this morning?
In my bed sleeping.

Do you believe once a cheater always a cheater?
Not necessarily.

Are there any words on your shirt?

Are you an older sibling?
No, and not younger either.

What were you doing right before you logged into Facebook?
Even though I'm not on Facebook, I was turning my mum's netbook on.

Your favorite thing to drink on a hot summer day?
Iced water, iced tea or iced coffee.

Do you plan on moving out in a few years?
Yes, for university.

How has this week been?
Average, then rather bad, then average again/

Did you get a full 8 hours of sleep last night?

Has a boy/girl ever called you babe/baby?

Have you ever kissed on a boat?

Is there a song that every time you hear it, you think of someone?

Expecting something to change in the next month?
Yes, hopefully for the better.

How ticklish are you?
Not very, and my hands and feet have grown immune to tickling.

Have you lost friends in the past three years?
I've grown apart from some friends, but not close ones.

What would you do if a stranger came up to you and said you are the most attractive person they have seen?
I'd reply graciously 'Why, thankyou.', smile warmly and strike up a conversation, perhaps starting with the small matter of ascertaining who they are.

Are you legal to drink?

Do you straighten your hair?

What's the closest black thing to you?
The computer keyboard.

Do you miss your past?
Parts. I miss being with Lucy and Sam everyday, I miss London and Dublin, I miss the holiday I had somewhere in the South this summer. I associate these things with happiness and contentment, so I suppose that's what I miss about my past. Well, parts of it.

Last time you smiled because you got a text?
I hardly ever use my phone, so I can't even remember the last text I got.

Who's in your default picture with you?

Do you like to make the first move?
I wouldn't know what to do. 'You're aesthetically pleasing'. How's that?

What are you doing besides this?
Thinking, respiring, listening, digesting and many other biological functions.

Something you just don't understand?
The appeal of Geography.

What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?

Do you think you're a good friend?
Yes, I do try to be. Okay, I can be cynical, pedantic and prudent, but I can also be fun and funny :)

Who was the last person you got into a big argument with?
Hmm, I'm not really sure.

Where did you sleep last night?
My bed.

Has anyone said you have changed lately?
No, I don't think people have noticed any changes in me because, if any, they've been internal.

Do you find it in your heart to forgive?
Yes, in fact perhaps I forgive too much sometimes.

What would you do if the friend you talk to most stopped talking to you?
I'd firstly ask why they weren't talking to me, then I'd be confused and upset.

Do you hate anyone?
Yes, but I have my reasons. I only hate three people, all of which teachers because they behaved disgustingly to me. Worse than any peer has ever treated. They caused me the most horrific times of my life. Fortunately, I don't see any of them now.

Anything you would change about your life right now?
Yes, quite a bit.

When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
Today. Actually, I talked to Adie about one and a half hours ago on the phone so that's it.

Current mood?

Is the last person you hugged older than you?
Yes, it was Sumaiyah, I think. She hugs me every day :)

Do you think you have made anyone happy recently?
Hopefully. I entertained Adie earlier.

Do you want to see somebody right now?
Yes, a few people.

What were you doing at 8 this morning?

Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?

Are you easy to get along with?
I think so.

Is there anyone you would do anything for?
Well, anything really can mean anything so I'm not sure. But I'd do a lot for a lot of people.

Does anyone completely understand you?
No, but I think some people are getting quite close. This is weird but my grandma does seem to understand me very well, probably because we're quite similar. But I think everyone would be surprised if I told them everything about me. No one would say 'Oh yeah, that's the Abby I know perfectly well'.

Do you like your handwriting?
Most of the time. I like how it's still perfectly joined up like in Year 3.

Who in your phone has a heart after their name?
Refer to earlier phone question.

How was your day today?
It was better than yesterday, fairly good. I got an A* on a History question so that's good.

What did you eat?
Break time - Double Decker bar
Lunch - sandwich with vegetarian sausage and ketchup, Walkers Cheese and Onion Crisps
After school - mini Aero bar
Dinner - Pasta in tomato sauce, potato smileys with mayonnaise, Chantenaille carrots, Brussel Sprouts fried in balsamic vinegar, two small yorkshire puddings
Pudding - a quarter of a small M&S chocolate mousse cake

And I plan to eat a bowl of Cheerios and maybe a green apple later.

Wow, looking at this I must have a big appetite. Well, I do have quite a fast metabolism but interestingly enough can also survive the whole day perfectly well without eating.

What was the last thing you put in your mouth?
A straw.

Are you texting anyone right now?

What are you talking about?

Who is your last call from?
Adie to ask about a sixth-form open day and also just to talk.

Who's car were you in last?
Sam's parents' car.

who made you smile today?
My English teacher for being so supportive about all my coursework.

How much money did you spend today?

Do you like driving?
I can't. I like riding in spacious, airy cars, though.

Are you close with your mother?
Very. This is kind of obvious, but she's basically exactly like the half of my personality that everyone at school sees. Oh, and we look really similar and often get mistaken for sisters, which I find weird.

Who did you last hold hands with?
I'm not sure.

Do you enjoy running?
No, not really.

What do you see right now?
The monitor.

What's bothering you?
A few things.

What's your plans for tomorrow?
A sixth-form college open day,

Are you happy?
A bit.

Do you smoke?
Eeeeh, no. I'd sooner lick my cat.

Are you an alcoholic?
No, certainly not. If I was going to drink I'd be sophisticated and enjoy a small glass of red wine daily every so often as the health benefits are proved.

Do you play video games?

What's your favourite song?
At the moment, 'Your Honor' by Regina Spektor. But anything by her, really, anytime.

Do you always do these notes?
Yes, it's a bad/good habit.

What drives you crazy?
Not much.

What do you want right now?
Lucy to be better and to get the best grades I can in my GCSEs. Oh, and being happy would be nice too.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Last one for now (I think)

A - Age: 15 and it's scary that I'll be 16 in 7 months and 16 days.

B - Bed size: Single. My cats love my bed far too much.

C - Chore you hate: I don't do any but I'd hate washing up because I find it quite disgusting.

D - Don’t eat: Meat, fish, soya nuts, roasted nuts, fruit crumble, fruit pie, raw tomatoes.

E - Essential start your day item: Brush teeth, cleanse and moisturise face, wash and brush hair, shower.

F - Favourite board game: Hmm, I'm not sure. Obscure ones.

G - Gold or Silver: Silver.

H - Height:About 175cm. I like being tall now, but it wasn't always that way.

I - Instruments you play(ed): Recorder for two terms and very basic keyboard. But I want to learn to play the piano, ukulele and possibly guitar.

J - Job title: It was Human Resources Director, but now student.

K - Kid(s): None, and I'm not sure if I ever want any. I'm either too patronising or too difficult to children.

L - Living arrangements: With my parents and two cats.

M - Mom’s name: Bekky.

N - Nicknames: Abifail, Abbsy, Obbsie, Abbster, Freddy Krueger, Abs and of course, Peachy.

O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: Never.

P - Pet Peeve: Why would I tell you my weaknesses? I've learnt never to say. Oh, but I'm great at not being annoyed. And if I want to I can be really, really annoying, but not normally.

Q - Famous Movie Quote: Hmm, I don't know many...

R - Right or left handed: Right.

S - Sibling(s): None, thankfully.

T - Time you wake up: 7.10 am on school days, about 9 or 10 at weekends.

U - Underwear: Mostly black.

V - Vegetable favorite: Asparagus.

W - Ways you run late: I don't often run late, but probably usually because I'm so meticulous with my grooming habits.

X - X-rays you’ve had: Teeth.

Y - Yummy food you make: Sometimes cake with help from Sam. I go round his house and we bake together :)

Z - Zoo favorite: Oops, no, I didn't mean pandas (I copied it from someone else's blog) - I meant alpacas :)

Oh look, another one...

[X] I Talk A LOT when I get really nervous.
[ ] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I’m afraid of the dark.
[ ] I can’t sleep in a room if the door is open
[ ]I can’t sleep in a room if the door is closed
[ ] I am homosexual.
[x] I believe in true love. (Well, hopefully, I don't really know yet_
[ ] I’ve ran away from home
[x] I listen to political music
[ ] I collect comic books
[ ] I shut others out when I’m sad.
[ ] I’ve stayed out all night.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[X] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[X] I watch the news
[X] I love Disney movies.
[ ] I am a sucker for green eyes.
[ ] I am a sucker for brown eyes.
[ ] I am a sucker for blue eyes
[X] I dont kill bugs
[ ] I have “x”s in my screen name.
[X] I’ve slipped and fell in public.
[ ] I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a real conversation
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I bake well.
[ ] I have worn pajamas to class.
[ ] I want a better job
[ ] Talked on a phone for 6+ hours.
[ ] I love Dr. Phil.
[X] I like multiple people. (I took this as meaning friends)
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[X] I am self-conscious.
[X] I love to laugh.
[X] I have tried alcohol.
[ ] I drink alcohol on a regular basis.
[ ] I have tried a cigarette.
[ ] I have smoked a pack in one day.
[ ] I loved Lord of the Flies.
[ ] I have cough drops when I’m not sick.
[X] I can’t swallow pills.
[ ] I have a lot of scars.
[ ] I can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[X] I like chocolate. (Only a bit)
[ ] I bite my nails.
[ ] I am not comfortable with being me.
[X] I play computer games when I’m bored.
[X] Gotten lost in the city.
[ ] Thought of suicide before.
[ ] Seen a shooting star.
[ ] Gone out in public in my pajamas
[ ] Hugged a stranger.
[ ] Been in a fist fight.
[ ] Laughed and had some type of beverage come out of my nose
[X] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] Made out in an elevator.
[ ] Kicked a guy where it hurts on purpose
[ ] Been skydiving.
[ ] Been bungee jumping.
[ ] Gotten stitches.
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[X] Bitten someone
[ ] Been to Niagara Falls.
[X] Gotten the chicken pox.
[ ] Crashed into a car
[ ] Been to germany.
[X] Ridden in a taxi.
[ ] Shoplifted.
[ ] Been fired.
[ ] Had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
[ ] Stole something from your job.
[ ] Gone on a blind date.
[ ] Had a crush on a teacher/coach.
[ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[X] Been to Europe.
[ ] Slept with a co-worker, and/or employee.
[ ] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[X] Saw someone/something dying.
[ ] Have a list of people you want to kill.
[X] Ridden in a car over 400 miles in one day
[ ] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] Thrown up in a bar.
[X] Eaten sushi.
[X] Cried in public.
[ ] Walked purposely into traffic with your eyes closed.
[ ] Liked someone even though you knew you shouldn’t have.
[X] Thought of someone a lot lately.
[ ] Hate the world.


So they might as well be in a little more of everywhere. Oh, and I enjoy them so that's that :)

If it's bold, I've done it.

Graduated High School.
Kissed someone.
Smoked cigarettes.
Got so drunk you passed out.
Rode every ride at an amusement park.
Collected something really stupid.
Gone to a rock concert.
Helped someone.
Gone fishing.
Spun turn tables.
Watched four movies in one night.
Gone long periods of time with out sleep.
Lied to someone.
Been dumped.
Snorted cocaine.
Failed a class.
Smoked weed.
Dealt drugs.
Taken a college level course.
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado.
Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid).
Watched someone die.
Been to a funeral.
Burned yourself.
Ran a marathon.
Your parents got divorced.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Spent over $200 in one day.
Flown on a plane.
Cheated on someone.
Been cheated on.
Written a 10 page letter.
Gone skiing.
Been sailing.
Cut yourself. (Accidentally)
Had a best friend.
Lost someone you loved.
Shoplifted something.
Been to jail.
Had detention.
Skipped school.
Got in trouble for something you didn’t do.
Stolen books from the library.
Gone to a different country.
Dropped out of school.
Been in a mental hospital.
Watched the “Harry Potter” movies. (The first two only)
Had an online diary. (This is kind of it)
Fired a gun.
Gambled in a casino.
Had a yard sale.
And a lemonade stand.
Actually made money at the lemonade stand.
Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Swam with dolphins.
Gone to sea world. (Well, a variation of that)
Attempted suicide.
Voted for American/Australian Idol.
Written poetry.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Gone to Europe.
Loved someone you couldn’t have.
Wondered about your sexuality.
Used a coloring book over age 12.
Had surgery.
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Seen the Washington Monument.
Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once.
Had a drug or alcohol problem.
Been in a fist fight.
Suffered any form of abuse.
Had a hamster.
Petted a wild animal.
Used a credit card.
Gone surfing in California.
Did “spirit day” at school.
Dyed your hair.
Got a tattoo.
Had something pierced.
Got straight A’s.
Been on the Honor Roll. (We call it gifted and talented here)
Your parents sent you to a shrink.
Been handcuffed.
Known someone with HIV or AIDS.
Taken pictures with a webcam.
Started a fire.
Had a party while your parents weren’t home.
Gotten caught having a party while they were gone.

An epiphany of sorts

Well, not really. But for basically as long as I can remember (and I think my earliest memory is being in France at the age of 2) I always associated my mother with water. And I would want something and go through every option and realise that the only things it could be were my mother and water. However, I never knew which one it was. I could never separate them. My mother drinks a lot of water and I think this is partly why. But also, her astrological sign is Aquarius. Obviously this is just a big coincidence. Nonetheless, I find it quite interesting.

I'm done pretending to be shocked and disturbed

It's fine. There's nothing wrong with it. It's time for everyone to get over it and get on.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Well, today was... interesting.

The break time at least. But let's leave it at that.

Anyway, my mum's trying to persuade me to go to a community choir held at a local school. I don't think I will. I've been in a choir before and I hated the feeling of insignificance. It seemed to make no difference whether I actually sang or just mimed and I felt so conformist. But at times it was quite fun.

Hmm, I suppose that's it. Yes, I believe it is. But I won't apologise for this being very short and fairly shallow - I think I'm done with apologising unnecessarily.

Monday, October 5, 2009

Remember Theme Hospital?

Ah, I loved that game :) Introduced to me (like a lot of things I currently/used to love) by Sam. It had those ridiculous illness like bloating of the head caused by drinking rain water. It had a real sense of urgency so you really felt like you needed to make your hospital amazing and save the patients.

And, oh, look at the system requirements: Pentium 75MHz processor, 8MB RAM (16MB if played on Windows XP), 1MB graphics card, 55MB hard drive space.

8MB RAM?! Ha ha... Simpler times :)

Hmm, maybe that's why hospitals intimidate me. Note: not scare, intimidate.

Actually, there was a little something about Theme Hospital that scared me, but in a good way.

Ooh, speaking of that, I do have a confession to make. On Roller Coaster Tycoon 3 I absolutely hated looking at the huge open area of grass when you haven't built much on your park or even if you have but didn't manage to fill it up. Wow, that actually scared me so much. I'm not joking - if I was previewing the ride by watching it from the point of view of the rider I actually had to look away if you could see the open grass for more than a second. Hence the reason that I built rides fast, but well, in order to fill up my park and make it less scary.

So, yes, I had a minor fear of games of that genre, but still loved playing them. A bit like roller coasters, I suppose. Well, now I see how that relates :)

Thursday, October 1, 2009

For those whom it may concern...

That's where I found the personality disorder test. Enjoy.